A long break from here..and i juz got to know that jason here is always been down in luck no matter what i do..juz that i tend to always look on the bright side of way..WHY ? simple.. coz there are ppl ard me who are all so nice and happily attached and me..well single.. i mean i'm not trying to be some arse hole who thinks that being single is not good ya knw..sometimes i juz need someone to pamper me,care for me,be there for me anywhere anytime and also everywhere,to talk to me when i'm down to..to be here with me no matter what..and i juz don't seemed to find this sort of ppl out there now..well maybe never and it'll only be found in my own fantasy..it's not abt who i'm with ya know..i mean be it a guy or a girl who's going to be my other half..but as long as they meet my criterias it'll be so so so not happen !! gosh.. anyway gotta congratulate another gay couples out there..and one of them is my fren's cou and another is my frenster fren..god pls tell me how fated they were to be together..me being sandwhiched in the middle of both of em.. i dare say that i'm not handsome and not even near semi-built but well i hav good chara..well maybe for 60% and the rest SHIT..hmm..maybe ish the rest of the shit that's shooing away ppl whom i need in my life..that is why i dare conclude that i am going to stay single until the day i found "YOU"..that'll probably take me eternity..that's all folks :) juz wanted to rattle what's in me ever since i saw some things and went thru stuffs..

Today my lappy's coming in !! Whoohooo..haha

that's the reason why i'm up so early though i slept so so late last night
haha..and also not to mention the unknown factor of messenging ppl when i'masleep
i mean when i'm asleep i juz wake up to see my sms and reply them..
don't know why i was so sensetive to vibration last night..didn't really get to slp till 3+ in the morn
then in morning ..
i realised that it's not even half month from the date of the billing..
and my sms are already 600++ gosh!!
i really gotta Cut Cut Cut the usage of smsing man..
hehe..
yesterday went all the way down to Jurong Point to meet dear dear for lunch..
met lots of his schoolmates and classmates..
and hor i realised that J.P. has is even more boring compared to T.M.
suddenly feel so fortunate being in the east..
anyway let's not divert away topic..
i took a cab down and asked uncle abt the cost and how long will i take to go there
then the uncle told me it'll be 10++ for the bill and i'll get there in 30 min
well i can say that Jurong ish a very very far place lo.. really..gosh!!
sat in the cab till so bored that i snapped some pics of myself trying to look good..heh BHB
then dear and i settled our lunch at Pizzahut
and i managed to snap shots of the dessert that we both had..
after that we went up and down the mall practically lo i tell ya
then it was time to go back alrdy..
you know jason hate to part with ppl one..so mood seems to change alittle
then dear still aggrivate me by saying that one guy from SAJC is very cute and stuff..
Sigh
anyway dear dear ..sorry for being such a pain in the neck and sorry for throwing my temper
sorry sorry sorry..if i could say sorry for ever..
though i know that u told me it's isn't my fault but i still wanna say sorry..
so yar..
anyway after departing with dear i went down to Lavender to meet up with cou
then we took a train to city hall to meet up with sista
we took till Novena and then we took a cabby down to UE Square
haha(suddenly so many thens here and there)haha
aerm when we reached the place called Seafood Harvest
haha..
after that very very filling dinner we decided to walk to the nearest MRT station..
which we ended up walking past Clark Quay-City Hall
that time we walked rite..
was just enough to digest our food..
haha just the correct exercise to do..jk jk
after that got back to my grandma's hs with cou at ard 11++ i guess..
then i use the com lo..
haha that's a full load of info for yest huh?! i thinkit is..haha
it's been a very long time ever since i've typed like this already.. :)
stopping here...

well today basically is aerm..
April fool's day..
till now i don't really understand why ppl name this day a fool's day..
is it becoz ppl tend to be fooled??
or maybe ppl on this day tend to be fooled??
or even better ppl tend to know that they are being fooled??
well this leads me to today's post topic or rather things that happened today..
today woke up had a video call with my lit cou..then did some checking of mail
after that i went to meet someone whom i met in frenster..
well that happened from 3-8++
while the whole time we chatted went to had dinner went to walk..and stuff
then deardear mesged me..
which brings me to the next topic..
i juz realised that somethings are always not as simple as it seems in the contarary
and that somethings that we as humans can't interfer at all not even to mention helping


coz there's this little problem that happened yest till now..and i'm really really at a loss
coz if someone has another person who likes euu but then that person didn't bring it up to euu
well i guess and i personally think that he doesn't hav any courage..like cummon if u like somebody juz tell him straight to the face not ask ppl to drop cash into his bag
and..i don't know..now that someone keeps on saying that he doesn't want me to be sad at all
but i can't bring myself to be happy either not to even mention jealous..
and today i don't think i deserve any thing from anyone alrdy..coz i realised that there are ppl out there who likes me but don't wanna say and there's someone whom i like told him but then brings me to this problem..i seriously think that this game shall end really really end..
and it'll end today.. :)
don't worry..i'll be fine tomorrow..it's true..coz it's a new page that'll be written on..till tomorrow..
i'm tired with this game..REALLY..
what an April Fool's Day '07

Artist: Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore Lyrics

Song: Way Back Into Love Lyrics

Haley:
Ive been living with a shadow over head
Ive been sleepin with a cloud above my bed
Ive been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just cant seem to move on

Hugh:
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just incase I ever need them again someday
Ive been setting aside time,to clear a little space in the cornners of my mind

chorus:
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
ohh

Haley:
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs
I know that its out there
Theres got to be something for my soul somewhere

Hugh:
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions

Chrous
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart again
I guess Im hopin you'll be there for me in the end
Haley:
There are moments when I dont know if its real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

Chorus:
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I cant make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart to you
Im hopin you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that I'll be there for u in the end



This is the lyrics from the movie "music and lyrics" well went to watch it on Mon or rather last monday with twin and her fren then for the last few days i've been spending my time with twin coz she flied off this afternoon to Sydney with her school..and well will be back next week..haha today went out with my Deardear..was very very happy..but then deardear say that maybe we should go out a few more times then conclude from then on..well was actually happy one lo..then deardear said that..then mood swings again..then before i typed this post i told deardear how i felt abt what he told me this evening..then he told me not to be sad coz that wasn't his intention at all..Sigh..anyway deardear..i'm already awaiting for our next date already !! haha besides all the point now it's sat night..which means..hahahahaha shall not tell ya..HEEE..
gtg
bye
bye
:)

this was what i found in frenster juz now..found that it was interesting.. so decided to post it..

17 signs that show that you like someone

SEVENTEEN:

>
> YOU LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE/PICTURE
> CONSTANTLY
>
>
>
> SIXTEEN:
>
> WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE
> AT
> NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU STILL
MISS
> THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO
MINUTES
> AGO.
>
>
>
> FIFTEEN:
>
> YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or IMS OVER AND
> OVER AGAIN.
>
>
>
>
>
> FOURTEEN:
>
> YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH
> THEM
>
>
>
> THIRTEEN:
>
> YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE
> AROUND.
>
>
>
> ELEVEN:
>
> WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEART
> BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME
> TIME
>
>
>
> TEN:
>
> YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.
>
>
>
> NINE:
>
> WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE
> THE
> OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE
IS
> HIM//HER.
>
>
>
> EIGHT:
>
> YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS,
> WHILE
> THINKING OF THEM
>
>
>
> SEVEN:
>
> THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.
>
>
>
> SIX:
>
> YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT.
>
>
>
> FIVE:
>
> YOU REALlIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYS
SMILING
> TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT
THEM.
>
>
>
> FOUR:
>
> YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR
> ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.
>
>
>
> THREE:
>
> WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE
> PERSON
> ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME...
>
>
>
> TWO:
>
> You were so busy thinking about that
> person, you didnt notice number
twelve
> was missing
>
>
>
> ONE:
>
> You just scrolled up to check & are
now
> silentely laughing at yourself.

yesterday went out with a fren..
or should i say with my ex..
well it was the stupidest mistake i've ever taken..
well i suppose it's partly me fault either..
didn't did my homework well enough..
to actually know that he has been taken..
now i'm left with regrets and jeal·ous·ly..
so dumb of me to think that i could get back to him when he mesged me that night and told me that he's single again..
i shld hav juz heck care the despo mesg he sent me..
well i didn' t think that way at that moment and time and place..and now this ish what i get in return=someone who's not like jason..
WHY ?? bcoz he juz lost another game..
a game which he thought he'll be able to win this game again though he had failed once..
stupid me..
"why do u keep on pinning hopes on this guy ??" -> my fren keep on asking me after i've told her
the answer i gave was "don't knw there's juz this feeling in me that says that no matter how bad he treats me i still like him..
now come to think of it..yesterday was really a stupid move..REALLY STUPID..

• first i took a cab down thinking that i'll be late butin the end it was him who was late..and for an hour he was late
• secondly he gave me excuses that i forgived him for the reason why he was late
  
• thirdly i shouldn't hav thought that he's my boyfren the whole time round when we were out yesterday
• fourthly i should have juz stood up on the dates we both had agreed on few days before..

anyway the moral of yesterday's story was :Jason=stupid,dummest,most foolish person on earth that is still living in a dream that will never be true.