yesterday went out with a fren..
or should i say with my ex..
well it was the stupidest mistake i've ever taken..
well i suppose it's partly me fault either..
didn't did my homework well enough..
to actually know that he has been taken..
now i'm left with regrets and jeal·ous·ly..
so dumb of me to think that i could get back to him when he mesged me that night and told me that he's single again..
i shld hav juz heck care the despo mesg he sent me..
well i didn' t think that way at that moment and time and place..and now this ish what i get in return=someone who's not like jason..
WHY ?? bcoz he juz lost another game..
a game which he thought he'll be able to win this game again though he had failed once..
stupid me..
"why do u keep on pinning hopes on this guy ??" -> my fren keep on asking me after i've told her
the answer i gave was "don't knw there's juz this feeling in me that says that no matter how bad he treats me i still like him..
now come to think of it..yesterday was really a stupid move..REALLY STUPID..

• first i took a cab down thinking that i'll be late butin the end it was him who was late..and for an hour he was late
• secondly he gave me excuses that i forgived him for the reason why he was late
  
• thirdly i shouldn't hav thought that he's my boyfren the whole time round when we were out yesterday
• fourthly i should have juz stood up on the dates we both had agreed on few days before..

anyway the moral of yesterday's story was :Jason=stupid,dummest,most foolish person on earth that is still living in a dream that will never be true.